I haven't felt motivated to write, there have just been so many unknowns and really who wants to write about the unknowns?

2013 was an absolutely interesting year.  It was January of last year that Aaron and I began pursuing adoption.  It was then that I began highly anticipating my 30th birthday when we could submit our dossier to China.  I knew that by October we would either be in the process of adopting, or beginning the process to adopt from China.  Then in March we unexpectedly found out that we were expecting Isaiah.  Our plans instantly changed as we anticipating meeting another baby.  In May we miscarried our son and then we were left confused.  Grieving, waiting.

By October we were ready to begin pursuing adoption again, although the grieving process never really ends it just changes.  We had both become open to domestic adoption and began interviewing agencies.  By mid-November we had interviewed and chosen an agency and were ready to proceed.  We filled out the paperwork - and then you never heard from us again!

By this point, you'd think that we were half way through our homestudy, or getting ready to start it - something, right?

Instead, we're still waiting --which explains the silence.

In November, just before our adoption packet was set to arrive at the agency office, we received some health information that caused us to request the agency return us our packet before cashing our check, before risking losing a portion of our fees.

(The answer to your burning question is - no I am NOT pregnant)

Although, we are healthy and pulling our packet turns our to have not been necessary the timing is nothing short of strange.

At that point, we had two choices, immediately resend our packet -or- wait.  We chose to wait, we were entering the holiday season which is always busy, and Aaron's job has had a lot of projects lately which have kept him from being home much.  We decided to wait until January.

And now January is here, and we're no closer to knowing what to do.  Isn't that interesting?

We continue to wait and to pray, knowing that God will give us wisdom, guidance, understanding, and direction - all in his timing.

Like I always ask, will you continue to pray with us?

I am confident that one of these days I'll be announcing the newest member of our family, but today is not that day, and I'm learning to be okay with that - that it might not even be this year.

I am constantly reminded of Psalm 27:14

Wait for the Lord, 

Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.