I really liked this woman's article about pregnancy after loss. She articulates what I can not always do so well. And I know that no matter what stage of pregnancy you are in after experiencing a loss - you will never view your pregnancy through the same eyes of one who has not lost. The early pregnancy moments of stomach upset and unending nausea are welcomed, even prayed for - and near the end you second guess every "quiet" moment, every twinge, hoping everything is still alright, hoping you'll have full arms and not empty ones in a matter of weeks. Read on....
"Well the title says it all–I’m 29 weeks today. And while I feel totally and wonderfully grateful and happy to be here, I admit, that part of me is still terrified. I’m starting to realize, there is no point in which a former infertile ever feels ‘safe’ during a pregnancy.
We know too much. We’ve heard too many stories. Our innocence was taken away either directly or through association in this community. And while it’s easy to tell yourself that such horror stories are rare. That we exist in a bubble rife with these sorts of tales because that’s what this community is about, it’s still hard not to look over your shoulder and wonder, “will it be me?”......(read more)"
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